21 March 1921
21 March 1921
21 March 1921
Villa Isola Bella, Menton, France
I find it possible to speak to you today. I am not in despair about my health. But I must make every effort to get it better soon, very soon. You see Jack ‘accepts’ it; it even suits him that I should be so subdued & helpless. And it is deadly to know he NEVER tries to help. But I was not born an invalid and I want to get well — I long for — Do you understand? I feel every day must be the last day of such a life — but I have now felt that for years. Ida — let us both try. Will you? Bouchage has failed. Help me to escape!
Later.
Your Wednesday letter has come re the furniture. I’d take what they will offer. Perhaps £8 is rather too little, tho.
I have decided to give up this villa for good & to really try Switzerland. I shall try & find that man Spahlinger & see if his treatment suits me. Jack goes to England in the first week in May. I have arranged with him not to return abroad, at any rate until the winter. But to spend the summer in the English country, with a bicycle. It would be impossible to have him in Switzerland while one was “looking round" & deciding. I can imagine it too well. He is v. willing not to come. So we’ll burn our French boats & go off together. I wish you could get Spahlingers address or an address where the treatment is followed. But how can you? I don’t know . . . I must now make a real effort to make money for this. Somehow, it must be done.
Take things easy - & look after yourself I hope the little boy is better.
Yours
Katherine.
[To Ida Baker in Collected Letters, 20 March 1921.]